Nah, I can't draw worth crap, but I still love me some makeup. Are you sure you're getting the right colors? That can make a huge amount of difference. Try eyeshadow shades that contrast with your eye color--for blue, brown; for green, plum; for hazel, pinks and peaches; and for brown, well, anything colored will do ya. Also, I chuck the sponge applicators that come with the makeup and use my own set of brushes. Much easier to control the blending that way.